Going crazy isn't as fun as one would imagine it to be.

So lately I've been studying practically nonstop. My days have basically become like this.
Weekday: Wake up, go to class, study, next class, study, etc. Back to dorm, study, pass out over book only to wake up next day with my texts speckled with drool (sexy no?). Then the rest of the day is the same.
Weekend: Wake up, study, study, study, study, scream, beat head against desk, study, study, study, study, pass out.

Rinse and Repeat.

No doubt it's playing a major part in my slowly unwinding mind.

But before I go into that, I'll mention a little back story. I'm writing a novel. I know I mentioned it before, but I doubt I've really gone into detail. I've tried writing novels before, and I'd get a few chapters done before I lose all interest in it. This is different though. Instead of an idea for a story coming at me, I have characters coming at me, telling me their story. It's intense. I've been having dreams about them, constantly thinking about them and what their daily life is like. Basically, by now I know them better than I know myself. Which is driving me to continue writing this story where I've stopped so many other times.

Now, I'm sure you're asking, "what the hell does this have to do with you going crazy?" But by the time you manage to get the words out I'm sure you've realized. But just in case, I'll elaborate anyway.

They've started talking to me, not just their story anymore. They'll tell me to 'get the damn book done you lazy cow!' Sounds like my mom, hah. Anyway, they'll comment on events that happen in my daily life. Will yell at me if I'm doing something where I could be continuing the story instead. Sometimes they'll tell me what they would do in certain situations. It is the weirdest fucking thing. Now, I know I'm not supposed to be hearing them. I know it's fucking bonkers, and I probably belong in an asylum. Only, I'm pretty damn sure, that if I ever finish the novel they'll shut the hell up. Which is only causing me to want to write and finish it more.

Only I can't! I have to study! Argghhhhhhaslkdfj

BonkersChaiLatte signing out, off to jump around in a padded cell (although, that would be pretty freaking cool).